Always Trilogy

"You are my muse and will always be."

You had the courage to tell it to my face

I asked, what did I do? 

You said, I existed and you read too many romance novels.

I would laugh out loud hearing this from you,

But, instead, I stayed quiet.

How would I respond to a blatant truth?

It was you who spoke again and smirked, "I know..."

"...but you are my muse and will always be."

And then, you walked away.

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"And you are my Ethereal and will always be."

I said as I watched you walked away and fade

I know, I didn't say it loud enough for you to hear

And perhaps, you'll never ever know...

Or perhaps, you already knew about it,

Because, after all, you are my Ethereal and will always be.

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You will always end up falling in love with me

 I tried everything I can that could alter it

Sometimes, I managed to prolong the pause between the fall

But most of the time, in every timeline, every universe...

...you just fell for me carelessly

I always ask you why, so I could understand,

And you always answer because it is I

And, perhaps, I've been asking the wrong person whys,

Because if one looks at the bigger picture...

...Lovely, it is I, and always I,

So, this time, I have decided to ask myself why,

Because I exist, obviously that's the answer,

Science and logic don't need to do the explaining,

Besides, mysteries should be left untouched apparently,

Because, eventually, no matter where we both are,

I will always take the path that leads to you...

...unconsciously and unknowingly.

How Will We Heal

I couldn't let myself hurt you over and over again

But every time I tried to walk away

A part of me knows your bleeding will never mend.

So, I stayed.

But, tell me, how will you heal?

If you keep holding on the knife that cuts you deep?

Please, lovely, have the strength to save yourself from me...

...Or at least freed me from this agony of causing you so much hurt.

Winika mo sa akin

Palagi mo kong pipiliin,

'yun ang winika mo sa akin.

Lubos ang aking galak sa ika-una, ikalwa, 

ikasampu't ikasandaang bes mong pagpili sa 'kin. 

Mga ngiti ko lang ang nakikita mo,

ngunit lumulundag ang aking puso. 

Pero bakit nung kasama na siya sa pagpipilian,

hindi mo na binanggit ang aking ngalan?

Bakit parang hindi mo ata pinanghawakan,

'yung pangakong sa akin ay 'yong binitawan?

Hindi ba't palagi mo kong pipiliin,

'yun ang winika mo sa akin?

Pero teka, tila mali ang aking nadinig,

O mas tamang sabihing pinili ko lang ang gusto ko marinig,

Dahil sa aking pagbaliktanaw sa 'yong buong pagkasabi sa 'kin,

"Palagi kitang pipiliin, basta ba 'di siya kasali.", walang kurap mong sabi.

Oo,

pinili

ko

nga

lang

ang

gusto

ko

marinig,

dahil nandito na tayo, sa kumpletong pangungusap mo.

I am your Support

 May you never misinterpret the support I freely give

Because darling, I am not a leverage to your success,

nor one of the stepping stones to reach your goals.

I am your support towards victory.

And if you do not have the wisdom to know the difference,

don't you dare have the audacity to stay

Leave me alone and never come back at all.

Warrior's Damsel

You knew what I have become,

that I'm tired being the damsel in distress,

that I've learned to fight like a warrior too, 

that I'm ready to bleed in the battle.

I have known what you are capable of, 

just to protect me at all cost, 

just to express the deepness of your love,

just to give me a beautiful life.

We were built for war and peace, 

the paradox of our realities,

or the reality of our paradoxes, 

the hurt among the comforts.

But please bear this in mind,

You, brave one, can also cling on me,

I, too, will do everything to protect you,

We can survive, for I will, bleed for you too.

Ethereal

I heard you cry and beg for my life, 

like it was something so precious and fine. 

I've felt the pureness of your desperation, 

a plead that reached my soul and became one with yours. 

And perhaps, you made Heaven glance at you and I,

because everytime I'm supposed to leave this life,

your prayers resurrect me before I even die.

And for that, perhaps, you will always be my Ethereal,

A love that expands to the realm of heaven and beyond,

something I could not grasp yet remains realest of all,

a heart that sees the impure so precious and fine,

that I am worth saving all the time.

But, you, my Ethereal, will always be,

always, the one precious and fine.

Preempt

Hahayaan kitang lumisan,

Kahit mga mata ko'y 'di ka pipigilan, 

Pero alam kong pagdudusahan ko 'to,

Nang mahabang panahon...

...o maaaring hindi matapos

Stayed and Waited

If you're going to ask me what kept me going

or how I survived the chaos I've faced,

It's because someone told me:

"Just stay where you are,

I'll come for you,

I'll be there."

And that's all I did,

Stayed and waited,

and if you are wondering if he arrived:

he did,

he always does,

and always will.

Masyado mong inasa sa buwan at mga tala

When I Turn To Look Around

You have never failed to make me feel how much you love me

But dear, when I turn to look around this place only reminds me: 

of the bruises and pain long forgotten

of the joy and happiness I can only look back to

of the nostalgic presence of a home that cradled me

It's so familiar and feels like home,

that I have memorized every corner, every hole

And dear, it only made one thing for sure,

That the thought of us needs letting go

For being with you exist only in the past,

Familiar and nostalgia but I cannot grasp from where I stand

Maaari Ba

Kapag hindi na ako nagdudulot ng ngiti

Sa mga labi mong hindi ko na maangkin

Kapag hindi na ako ang laman ng isip sa gabi

O sa umagang di na ako laging kaparte

Na para bang ako'y nagsusumiksik,

Ipinipilit ang sarili na dati namang hindi. 

Maaari bang huwag ka nang magkunwari

Na ito'y normal, na tayo'y ayos pa rin. 

Kahit nakasampal na sa mukha natin

Na ang pagbabago ay talagang kay laki

'Yung mapapatanong ka "ba't ba ko nahumaling?"

Dahil limot na ng puso't isip 'yung dati,

Kung saan ang 'yong salita'y kay tamis at giliw,

Kulang ang oras at araw sa'ting paglalandi

Kung saan napapatawa mo pa akong maigi

Na wari ba'y ako 'yung mundo na iyong pinili

Walang iba, walang sila, tayo lang sa paligid.

Naalala na lang sa t'wing mapapatanong ng bakit... 

"Bakit ba 'ko nahumaling, ba't nagbago ka, giliw?"