Saturday, August 7, 2010

"A site from the window"

I remember those days,
running in this field with my bare feet,
hiding behind that corner,
sitting and standing on that old table,
climbing that huge tree near our kitchen,
playing with the puppy that used to live.


I remember those days..
they seem so near,
yet they are miles away.
And each day that goes by
makes them so far away.
You want to go back,
but all you can do is to look back.

"For God"

You have never let me down
Though I made mistakes and sin
You have never left me behind
Though I gave you pain and broke your heart
You just listen and then understand me.


Sometimes I even blame you
And I know that it hurts you so.
So I really feel guilty for doing that
Please just accept my sorry
For I'm so naive and stupid sometimes.


You perfectly created us
But there's no one perfect than you.
And so we can never be perfect at all.
But I know that you're there to guide us all
And will keep on loving us no matter what.


So I hope you'll not be tired
Please stay with me,
Please always guide me,
Please don't change.
I'm always needing you.


I never want to hurt you
But I am only human
And though I love you so,
And no matter how hard I try to avoid those
Sometimes I just can't stop committing them.


But you know that I really don't mean it.
For I can't do that to the one I love.
And I can't hate the one I adore.
But I am only human, perfectly created
But can never be perfect at all.

"Goodbye"

I've done enough
and I have to end this fantasy.
This story of an ordinary girl,
who fell in-love with this handsome prince
should now take a bow as the light turns off.


But this one is not a happy ending
and still, all of them will be happy.
They will never be surprised by the ending.
Besides, it's what they have expected after all.
You will never see disappointment at all.


I tried to make it against their expectations,
I find ways to make it a happy ending story,
but whenever I start to make it happen
it will just ruin the plan and the story as well.
For the characters I've made are different among others.


I tried hard to lead this story in that place,
where the handsome prince will realized that he loves this ordinary girl.
But I got exhausted, tired of thinking.
Even the most powerful man has the right to be tired
And so, I just made it the way they want it to be.


It's hard for me to accept that this story will end this way.
But anyway, I have made a good story
for I made you happy by giving a not so happy ending story.
So let this ordinary girl give up this handsome prince
She's about to say her goodbye to him.

"My Passion"

(This poem was made out of my confusion whether I should take up Mass Communication or Nursing as my course in college)

"My Passion"

This is my passion,
and this is what I want to be.
This is where I'm happy,
and here is where my best will be.

I never want to leave this passion,
and I will never give it up.
But this is not what they want me to be.
Why of all people it's them who should not agree?

When I was a child,
I never thought of this passion.
But as I'm getting matured
I'm having a realization of what I really want to be.

I'm not sure if this will give me a good future,
but they are sure that this will not and so to them.
But I can never do things that I never want to do,
is it hard to understand?

I'm in a democratic place,
but someone's controlling my decisions.
I'm not against them and to their ideas,
but can I have my freedom for just once?

If God will let me stay here in my passion
Then I'll be glad for I have my passion and a good future.
But if God will choose what they want,
I'd still be glad for it will give them a good future.

But it's hard to give up your passion
over something that you don't want to be,
but if it will make them happy and proud
Will I really have to give up my passion?