kung minsan,
naiinis ako sa mga ginagawa kong tula
hindi dahil kulang sa tugma
hindi dahil walang diwa at kaluluwa
hindi dahil sa hindi malawak na lathala
kundi palagi,
may kasamang pag-ibig ang aking paglikha
na palaging may bitbit na katotohanan
na mga kataga'y maaaring sayo'y sumugat
na sa kabila n'on ay nagawa ko pa ring ilathala
kung minsan,
naiinis ako sa mga ginagawa kong tula
dahil ikaw ang bumabasa
habang siya ang paksa
You haunt me not only in my dreams
But your shadow follows me even on the newly released songs of a band I just heard the name for the first time
No
Even on the songs of my favorite band I knew since high school
I
Can't
Unheard
You
The meaningless now shouts in my face saying look at me
That even the phrases I read in the novel I hold in my hands remind me of you
No
Even on the memes I see on the internet undoubtedly scream your wholeness
I
Can't
Unseen
You
Not only I am haunted by the life that could have been with you
But that every time I cry, your image will always follow as if you are comforting my brokenness
No
Even when I'm in my happiest I think of you and hoping you too are in your joyous state
I
Can't
Help
But
Pray
For
You
You made me question my sanity yet now I know what I can be capable of
That I sometimes stay away from books, music, and arts for they only gravitate me more to the thoughts of you
No
Even when I am alone and sitting with silence, you will be the whispers I can't run from
I
Can't
Untie
Your
Being
From
Me
This is the curse of not choosing you
No
This is the gift of knowing you because part of me is so grateful
That
I
Can
Always
And
Forever
Write
About
You
