"A site from the window"

I remember those days,
running in this field with my bare feet,
hiding behind that corner,
sitting and standing on that old table,
climbing that huge tree near our kitchen,
playing with the puppy that used to live.


I remember those days..
they seem so near,
yet they are miles away.
And each day that goes by
makes them so far away.
You want to go back,
but all you can do is to look back.

"For God"

You have never let me down
Though I made mistakes and sin
You have never left me behind
Though I gave you pain and broke your heart
You just listen and then understand me.


Sometimes I even blame you
And I know that it hurts you so.
So I really feel guilty for doing that
Please just accept my sorry
For I'm so naive and stupid sometimes.


You perfectly created us
But there's no one perfect than you.
And so we can never be perfect at all.
But I know that you're there to guide us all
And will keep on loving us no matter what.


So I hope you'll not be tired
Please stay with me,
Please always guide me,
Please don't change.
I'm always needing you.


I never want to hurt you
But I am only human
And though I love you so,
And no matter how hard I try to avoid those
Sometimes I just can't stop committing them.


But you know that I really don't mean it.
For I can't do that to the one I love.
And I can't hate the one I adore.
But I am only human, perfectly created
But can never be perfect at all.

"Goodbye"

I've done enough
and I have to end this fantasy.
This story of an ordinary girl,
who fell in-love with this handsome prince
should now take a bow as the light turns off.


But this one is not a happy ending
and still, all of them will be happy.
They will never be surprised by the ending.
Besides, it's what they have expected after all.
You will never see disappointment at all.


I tried to make it against their expectations,
I find ways to make it a happy ending story,
but whenever I start to make it happen
it will just ruin the plan and the story as well.
For the characters I've made are different among others.


I tried hard to lead this story in that place,
where the handsome prince will realized that he loves this ordinary girl.
But I got exhausted, tired of thinking.
Even the most powerful man has the right to be tired
And so, I just made it the way they want it to be.


It's hard for me to accept that this story will end this way.
But anyway, I have made a good story
for I made you happy by giving a not so happy ending story.
So let this ordinary girl give up this handsome prince
She's about to say her goodbye to him.

"My Passion"

(This poem was made out of my confusion whether I should take up Mass Communication or Nursing as my course in college)

"My Passion"

This is my passion,
and this is what I want to be.
This is where I'm happy,
and here is where my best will be.

I never want to leave this passion,
and I will never give it up.
But this is not what they want me to be.
Why of all people it's them who should not agree?

When I was a child,
I never thought of this passion.
But as I'm getting matured
I'm having a realization of what I really want to be.

I'm not sure if this will give me a good future,
but they are sure that this will not and so to them.
But I can never do things that I never want to do,
is it hard to understand?

I'm in a democratic place,
but someone's controlling my decisions.
I'm not against them and to their ideas,
but can I have my freedom for just once?

If God will let me stay here in my passion
Then I'll be glad for I have my passion and a good future.
But if God will choose what they want,
I'd still be glad for it will give them a good future.

But it's hard to give up your passion
over something that you don't want to be,
but if it will make them happy and proud
Will I really have to give up my passion?

"An Adolescent"

(This was made when I was a teenager, of course, just look at the title :P, and we all know that being in that stage of life is very confusing, it's also the stage that we start to realize so many things about reality. So here's a poem I made during my adolescent year)

"An Adolescent"

I'm not a child anymore

and day by day I'm learning more

I have realized many things

and I'm starting to be independent

sometimes I cry quietly

with no definite reason

or maybe with so many reasons

how long can I still hold on?!

sometimes I wish Peter pan is true

a boy who can bring me to a far away place

a place where problems are not allowed

a place where my dreams can come true.

if that boy is real

and asks me to go fly with him

and if he'll take me to never land

I would be willing to be his Wendy

because I know in that place

there's nothing to worry about

and even hook can't harm me

because that boy will protect me

and when I think of happy thoughts

I will surely fly and touch the clouds

and my dreams will come true by just believing on them.

but I am not Wendy!

and never land is not true

and a boy named peter pan does not exist

it's just a story for children

and I have to be matured

so goodbye Peter pan,

goodbye Neverland

I have to face my reality..

"THE PURPOSE"

I jumped high just to touch the sky
I tried even higher to show that I'm stronger
But I guess the world is a lot bigger
And I was mad a little smaller.

I was always looking up and reaching for the top
'till I forgot what it's like to live a life,
'till I notice not the beauty of the place I have.
That's when I realized who I really am.

I wasn't really made to reach the sky
I was made smaller, to rule this place which is a lot bigger.

“ANAK NG TINOLA!”

(this was also posted on my facebook account. Haha.. it reminds me of my high school life.. :) or rather school days.. :) i miss those days, and that feeling too..pero ayoko ng malasin. haha.)

“ANAK NG TINOLA!”

Alas otso na!

Kelangan ng bumangon

Ngunit mata ko’y kay bigat,

Di ko kayang imulat.

Sandali pang umidlip

Napadpad muli sa panaginip

Sa isang sandali

Di na alam ang nagyari

Sa muling pagmulat,

Bigla nalang napamura

Anak ng tinola!

Alas dies na pala.

Nawala ang antok

Kumaripas takbo

Pagtunton sa banyo

Binuksan ang gripo

Dali-daling naligo

Takbo muli sa kwarto,

Damit pala’y gusot pa

Pagminamalas kang talaga

Plinantsa ang gusot

At dali-daling isinuot

Sinuklay ang buhok

Sinuot ang sapatos

Pumunta sa kusina

Tinapay ay kinuha

Nais ko pang kumain

Ngunit oras ay may taning

Si nanay ay tinawag

Ngunit di ako naririnig,

Nasaan ba kasi si nanay?

Wala pa akong baon! hay!

Binuksan ang pitaka

May bente pang natitira

Muling napamura!

Makaalis na lang nga.

Pagdating sa sakayan

Ako’y bwiset na bwiset

Kinalma ang sarili,

Tiningnan ang oras

Ayos lang pala

Ako’y makakaabot pa,

Habang naghihintay

Sa dapat na sasakyan..

Kinapa ang bulsa.

Nasan na nga ba ang pitaka?

Damit pala’y baligtad pa!

Makakapasok pa kaya?!

"EMO"

(pagpasensyahan niyo 'to, alam kung korni.. this was made during the time when i'm so deeply in-love with someone..at aminin na natin, nakapag in-love nagiging korni ang isang tao..ang hindi sumang-ayon ay isang malaking "HYPOCRITE"!) 

"EMO"

I’m getting tired of this scenario

I’m sick of doing things for you

I hate how you complete my day

And I can’t take how I long for you to stay

‘Cause it really shows that you just don’t care

But how naïve I am to still feel this way!

I never want to love someone like this!

I want someone who can love me back! not like you!

You’re just a waste of time!

Yes, I admit it’s true

But though I know how much pain you would give me

I just can’t help myself to stop loving you…

Despite how much those realities hurt

And for thousand of reasons I should depend

I just don’t know how to say goodbye

Although they have made their advice

I just can’t go on and do what they want

“To find someone who can love me back”

You’re not mine and you will never be mine

But why is it so hard to let you go?

I thought that love was made for us to be happy

But why do my tears start falling?

If you could only feel what I’m feeling

Then I guess you’ll wipe my tears and love me back…

meet my boyfriemd! (ASA)

We had a great day!

how i wish!

haha..

anyway, just want you to know that this guy really rocks!

kumbaga sa Pilipino..

ASTIG!!

totoong ASTIG!

SANA TOTOO RING NAKASAMA KO SIYA!

haha..

ok.

sabi ko nga mangarap nalang ako e.

“Hardenero”

Nakakalungkot ang ngiting galling sayo,

Dahil alam kong hindi naman ito totoo.

Nakikita ko ang mga mata mo,

Nakapikit, luha ang nasa likod nito.

Itinatago mo ang sakit sa iyong puso,

Pero nasaksihan ko ang mga luhang palihim na tumutulo.

Lumapit ako at pinunasan ang mga luha mo,

Ba’t di nalang kasi ako ang ibigin mo?

Mahal mo siya at ito’y alam ko,

Ngunit hindi buo ang pag-ibig niya sa iyo.

Matagal kko ng kinakatok ang iyong puso,

Ngunit tinig niya lang ang dinidinig mo.

Ikaw ay rosas para sa akin,

Mas mahal kita kesa kaya niyang gawin.

Mahal ka niya ngunit ito ba’y totoo?

Kung ganun ba’t anino ang turing niya sa iyo…

Waring may tabak na tumarak sa puso,

Ang rosas sa iyo ay itinapon mo.

Mas nanaisin mo pa palang maging anino,

Kesa maging rosas sa tabi ko.

“KEEP ON”

How can I keep on running?

When there’s a time I feel like quitting?

I guess life is making me weak,

What should I do about it?

A question is meant to be answered,

But how come I became so deaf?

So far from the world I was in,

And so near on the edge of a cliff

Dig deep fearful friend of mine,

Dig deeper in your heart and you’ll find,

The courage that will keep you going,

The strength that will keep you winning.

Life is a one-big-fight,

It doesn’t matter if you stumble and cry.

Feel free to do every inch of everything

But the goal is to keep on breathing..

It doesn’t matter if you can’t find the answers,

Sometimes it’s better to preserve the innocence

And if time comes you feel like quitting,

Hear the sound of your heart, it’s beating

“BASAHIN MO”

Ilang tula na nga ba ang aking nagawa?

Pero ni isa’y di pa nailathala,

Ganun pa man patuloy lang sa pag-gawa,

Hangga’t may pansulat at papel akong nakikita,

Hindi ako titigil sa pagiging makata.

Kalian nga ba ako nag-umpisa?

Ang alam ko’y bata pa lang ay nagsulat na

Mga gawa ko noo’y wala ngang halaga,

Ang alam ko’y ito’y laro lamang.

Pero ngayon, laro pa rin ba ang dapat itawag?

Hindi ko naman gustong maging tanyag

Gamit ang mga tulang aking naisulat,

Pero hindi lang ito simpleng libangan

Pagkat dito ko nailalabas ang mga katotohanan,

Dito mo rin mababasa mga lihim sa aking katauhan.

Sa mga malalalim at matatalinhagang salita,

Dito mo lang tanging malalaman

Na sa kabilang bahagi ng aking pagkatao,

Kakaibang nilalang pala ang nakapaloob dito,

Maniwala ka! Ako lahat ang sumulat nito.

“Damong Rosas”

Malayo-layo na rin pala ang narating ko!
Simula ng lakbayin ko ang lupaing mabato

Dun ko natutunan kung paano bumangon,

Malubak, pero ako’y natuto naman…

Nasubaybayan mo ba ang aking paglago?

Mula sa pagiging damo naging rosas ako…

Naaamoy mo ba ang halimuyak ko?

Mabango, halimuyak ng pangarap ko ito…

Sa isang damo ako nagsimula,

Naglalakbay ngunit lahat sila’y nakatingala…

May mga tumungo ngunit tinapakan lang ako,

Pagkat ako’y isang damo, ano nga bang kaya ko?

Ngunit ngayon ako’y isang rosas na!

May mabangong halimuyak na aking dala…

Silang mga nakatingala, ngayo’y napapatungo,

Bumubilib na sa halimuyak ko…

Ano namang masasabi mo?

Tingnan mo ang rosas na ito…

Ano?! Isa pa rin ba akong damo?

Nakakatawa, nangangarap lang pala ako…